Slowing Down

18/11/2015

Two and a half years ago I came away from South Korea with a love for a new country and a desire to return. A few months later, after a lot of thinking and research, I decided that Korea was where I wanted to end up after my graduation, teaching English in a school or an academy. Last year, my friend Brittany moved out to Korea to be an English teacher in a hagwon (academy) and following her blog, Instagram and Facebook posts, plus a trip out there to see her, just solidified my intent to get my TEFL and go out there a few months after completing my degree.

Recently, I’ve been going through a patch of stress which has made me stop and think about everything. I’ve realised, with help from my mum, that I’m always trying to do too much and too fast, which, for a lazy person is pretty strange. When I get an idea I want to do it straight away, or at least soon, but this means I’m always going non-stop. Being so intent on going to Korea to teach has been one of these ideas, and I was so sure I was going to go out there the October after graduating. My trip in the summer pushed it back to February 2017, as I’ve now created more debts that I want to pay off before I leave the UK, but recent happenings have made me stop and think about if February 2017 is even too early.

Korea will always be there, and there will always be people to teach English to, so why am I rushing? I have been so stressed recently, and all my rushing around, physically and mentally, doesn’t help. After spreading myself so thin this year, if I just slow down next year, take a little while to rest at home, pay off my horrendous student overdraft and recuperate from four intense years of study and work, I will feel so much better about everything. I might even be able to travel a bit more without it then making me worry about how I’m going to pay for my next meal! I’ll be living the life! (Might seem like a bit of an exaggeration, but if you’ve ever lived months at a time at the very, very end of your overdraft you will be able to relate!)

So basically (and I know this was a massive rant and I’m sorry if it’s not coherent at all) I’m not going to Korea as soon as I graduate. I’m going to take some time for myself, enjoy being with my family and chill out. All I want to do is work as a barista or something. It’d be nice to go, make coffee, come home and not have to study about the history of coffee, or where coffee comes from, or give a presentation on an analysis of different types of coffee, or write a 5000 word essay on the politics of coffee…you get my point! Essentially, I don’t want to study any more. 😉 And in seven months time I won’t have to! I will have finished all my exams. Scary stuff.

If you’ve made it here to the end of this big ramble, well done! And thank you.

Have you ever felt like you’re trying to do too much, or that life is moving too fast?

Until next time,

H x

Paris, 2015

Paris, 2015

One response to “Slowing Down”

  1. Very brave post xx love you always xx

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